| o d a c 19 |
| Wednesday, September 01, 2004 disillusioned. i am heartened slightly by the fact that daryl and chew have said something. something to let me know that some people are still alive, still... feeling. i hate isolation at home. one, i dont study well. two, i start to think. think too much for my damn own good. muse, ponder, deliberate, ruminate. call it what u will. self-torment, perhaps a better word. i hate to say this, but it burdens me much. what has happened to batch 19? how are we going to conclude 2 years of... what do u call it? will i ever see everyone again? as a batch? not as smiling (sometimes not even!) faces in corridors that nod pleasantly in acknowledgement of some common bond, some good times we shared in the distant past... lets go prom together. but no, for the prom is expensive, the location lousy. lets not go prom together then! but no, for i have promised my other friends otherwise. how now? lets go thailand together! but no, for the trip is expensive, the place dangerous, the parents fussy, the time inopportune. what happened to it matters less what or how u do it, but more of with whom u do it? oh yes, that was some maxim i invented myself, which no one subscribes to anyway. silly me. can i restore my faith in humanity? or has it been been justifiably misplaced all along? i wish to leave rjc not remembering "my friends in odac", but rather my batchmates. i wish to associate everyone with batch 19, not "someone i knew from odac". now i've said too much. and i feel slightly less disillusioned... more jaded. yes. comfy status quo; ignorance, my dear friends, is bliss. daryl: meaning of this mugging. i tried thinking of a reply, and i shuddered at the monstrosity my mind was capable of inventing. nonono, better we do not question, and just obey, lest we become disillusioned, lest we cease to mug, perhaps then, cease to exist. oh dear. he is incoherent again. blah. |
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| TIFFANIE. JAYCE. YUANXIANG. SAUYEE. CHUENKANG. EUGENE. JOSHUA. JAMIN. CHEECHONG. ZHENGYUAN. NIZAM. YONGLAI. NITA. KIT LING. DARYL. RUIMING. MELODY. MINGHENG. KENTOH. SHIHUI. TIFFANIE. JAYCE. YUANXIANG. SAUYEE. CHUENKANG. EUGENE. JOSHUA. JAMIN. CHEECHONG. ZHENGYUAN. NIZAM. YONGLAI. NITA. KIT LING. DARYL. RUIMING. MELODY. MINGHENG. KENTOH. SHIHUI. TIFFANIE. JAYCE. YUANXIANG. SAUYEE. CHUENKANG. EUGENE. JOSHUA. JAMIN. CHEECHONG. ZHENGYUAN. NIZAM. YONGLAI. NITA. KIT LING. DARYL. RUIMING. MELODY. MINGHENG. KENTOH. SHIHUI. TIFFANIE. JAYCE. YUANXIANG. SAUYEE. CHUENKANG. EUGENE. JOSHUA. JAMIN. CHEECHONG. ZHENGYUAN. NIZAM. YONGLAI. NITA. KIT LING. DARYL. RUIMING. MELODY. MINGHENG. KENTOH. SHIHUI. TIFFANIE. JAYCE. YUANXIANG. SAUYEE. CHUENKANG. EUGENE. JOSHUA. JAMIN. CHEECHONG. ZHENGYUAN. NIZAM. YONGLAI. NITA. KIT LING. DARYL. RUIMING. MELODY. MINGHENG. KENTOH. SHIHUI. TIFFANIE. JAYCE. YUANXIANG. SAUYEE. CHUENKANG. EUGENE. JOSHUA. JAMIN. CHEECHONG. ZHENGYUAN. NIZAM. YONGLAI. NITA. KIT LING. DARYL. RUIMING. MELODY. MINGHENG. KENTOH. SHIHUI. TIFFANIE. JAYCE. YUANXIANG. SAUYEE. CHUENKANG. EUGENE. JOSHUA. JAMIN. CHEECHONG. ZHENGYUAN. NIZAM. YONGLAI. NITA. KIT LING. DARYL. RUIMING. MELODY. MINGHENG. KENTOH. SHIHUI. TIFFANIE. JAYCE. YUANXIANG. SAUYEE. CHUENKANG. EUGENE. JOSHUA. JAMIN. CHEECHONG. ZHENGYUAN. NIZAM. YONGLAI. NITA. KIT LING. DARYL. RUIMING. MELODY. MINGHENG. KENTOH. SHIHUI. TIFFANIE. JAYCE. YUANXIANG. SAUYEE. CHUENKANG. EUGENE. JOSHUA. JAMIN. CHEECHONG. ZHENGYUAN. NIZAM. YONGLAI. NITA. KIT LING. DARYL. RUIMING. MELODY. MINGHENG. KENTOH. SHIHUI. TIFFANIE. JAYCE. YUANXIANG. SAUYEE. CHUENKANG. EUGENE. JOSHUA. JAMIN. CHEECHONG. ZHENGYUAN. NIZAM. YONGLAI. NITA. KIT LING. DARYL. RUIMING. MELODY. MINGHENG. KENTOH. SHIHUI. TIFFANIE. JAYCE. YUANXIANG. SAUYEE. CHUENKANG. EUGENE. JOSHUA. JAMIN. CHEECHONG. ZHENGYUAN. NIZAM. YONGLAI. NITA. KIT LING. DARYL. RUIMING. MELODY. MINGHENG. KENTOH. SHIHUI. TIFFANIE. JAYCE. YUANXIANG. SAUYEE. CHUENKANG. EUGENE. JOSHUA. JAMIN. CHEECHONG. ZHENGYUAN. NIZAM. YONGLAI. NITA. KIT LING. DARYL. RUIMING. MELODY. MINGHENG. KENTOH. SHIHUI. TIFFANIE. JAYCE. YUANXIANG. SAUYEE. CHUENKANG. EUGENE. JOSHUA. JAMIN. CHEECHONG. ZHENGYUAN. NIZAM. YONGLAI. NITA. KIT LING. DARYL. RUIMING. MELODY. MINGHENG. KENTOH. SHIHUI. TIFFANIE. JAYCE. YUANXIANG. SAUYEE. CHUENKANG. EUGENE. JOSHUA. JAMIN. CHEECHONG. ZHENGYUAN. NIZAM. YONGLAI. NITA. KIT LING. DARYL. RUIMING. MELODY. MINGHENG. KENTOH. SHIHUI. DREAM. DREAM DREAM |
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