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| Sunday, July 17, 2005 ruiming: jayce is right. fieldcamp is really hugging that rifle to sleep 8+ hours every day. unless u are paranoid like me, who wakes up every half hour to check my rifle, u shouldnt worry about not being rested. easy for me to say, now that ive been through it. but i sleep around 30 to 35 hours on a good week nowadays. so yea. guys. im been meaning to write something here for sometime. because of the things ive been seeing/feeling lately. i realise that odac is a part of my life. can't cut if off, like i've did to other things in the past. so i must suffer for it. "feel that? its pain. get used to it" (someone tell me who said this) anyway, im mighty cheesed that im missing my first odacia as a lao jiao. stupid XXI. why so late this year? how many more will i miss in the future? let me rephrase that. how many will i miss before i get to even attend my first? i've been meaning to go back to rjc. just for odac (rj happens to no longer be next door). to hover over the juniors with that air of friendly condescension, to make my self feel old and experienced and blah. may very well be my last time, before i begin The Rest Of My Life (tm). when is the last time u reflected about odac? i just did, 2 nights ago. it was 11+pm. we were in the jamming (music) room at my wing, just me and the drummer. he was from vj odac. started off with casual talk about the coming mt bromo trip. topic switched to gear. then to expeditions- cold ones (him-vietnam, me-sikkim/mt k). then to kayaking. and photos. then to wanting more (the present, the future, how.) recalling, bragging almost, til our hearts swelled. brilliant. can anyone remember the campsite at dzongri? the toilet with the super-ventilated shit hole? the bucket of ice and rock which u were meant to wash your hands with? the freakin -10deg campsite, where in the evening everyone stood in the sun instead of the shadow because it was a good few degrees warmer in the sun? what about the puking incident at night? or waking up in the early morning, ascending to the unspectacular sunrise? who recalls the feeling of your mucus freezing on the skin under your nose? can anyone recall all the bloody horrid FUN we had? of course you can. of course u damn well can. who needs the cameras and the photos. the emotions have been branded onto us. i trust it to outlive those CDs of photos. odacians are everywhere. i think i've found samuel's cabin at my wingline. one of my juniors occupies it now. it has XIII's photos on the walls. after a kayaking expedition. i glimpsed at it and grinned like a fool. why, i do not really know. see, someday in the future you will meet an odacian somewhere either socially or professionally. and when the mutual identity has been established, you will look each other in the eye and see each other in a different light. the respect is given automatically. nigel (my vj odac friend): i have lots of photos from my vietnam trip. i'll try to bring them in the next book-in to show u me: yea cool. i dont have this habit of keeping photos. i just keep my memories in my mind. more authentic that way. and when it fades, i just let it fade naturally. nigel: i think its nice to have something to hold on to, though. so when i feel shitty and life sucks i look through them and it makes me feel better. =) to self: dammit. he is right. someday, in the distant future, i will find a period of time when we are all free and we will go on a nice trip to suffer again. and we will leave behind our husbands and wifes and kids and careers just for this trip, just to be odacians once again. i have said it now, and you have witnessed it. so i will see it through. |edit| broken song lyrics removed. its chinese of course (how many languages do i know). it was the chorus to guang liang's tong hua (comic book). it translates poorly to "i am willing to turn into the angel from the comic that u like. i will open my arms and they will turn into wings and i will protect u. you must believe that we will be like the story of the comic- living happily ever after." guys. i can just see myself having a career as a translator. (shudder) ahem. |/edit| have an awesome week. |
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